Semalam aku tengok True Beauty. Rancangan ini terdapat banyak adegan tidak bermoral dan aku tidak faham kenapa boleh lepas kat TV Malaysia. Gadis-gadis berpakaian (terlalu) seksi & terdapat pula adegan jejaka itu bogel. Adoi.
Nak jadi true beauty, tak perlu tengok rancangan itu. Adalah mustahil menjadi 100% suci at all time. Everyone has a dark side. It is all about learning to love yourself babeh.
Now, let me tell u a true story, experienced by me myself.
I was overweight. I was so embarrassed with my own body & I had no self esteem at all. I cant wear any pants/jeans at all because I look bad in it. I dislike wearing baju kurung because I had a big arm. My siblings made fun of my weight. My brothers used to call me Benai. Back then, there were dramas named “Lontong” & “Sambal”. Syanie was starring as Benai. My sisters actually told me how fat I was. When I was a kid, I cant be wearing any shoes of kids size because there was no my size at all.
When it came to the annual weightings during my primary school, I would always be afraid. I know I will be embarrassed. Then, when it came to the dental checking at school, I was always afraid to lie down. Now, everyone is going to see my extra luggage.
I remember back at my school time, one of my seniors (a girl) actually came to me and make a personal comment about me. That was harsh. I felt bad about it. Back then I was in form 2 and the senior was in form 5. School bullying in a kampong style. When I was in form 2(again), one of my classmates (a boy) actually commented about my body size to his guy friends. School is always a terrifying place to go. With all these shitty experiences, I always hated myself.
Until now, I am still having a bad judgment against myself.
So, I learnt from all this experiences, to NEVER comment on ones physical appearance. Its causes one self esteem to go as low as it can. Never tell a kid anything that can boost them down. Everyone is created differently.
And still, I hope one day I can have all the strength to be a person who is very confident and have the urge towards myself. Readers out there, lets change things. It is not funny to make fun towards someone; at least not everyone will laugh at it..